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Jun. 2nd, 2004 10:56 amI was raised to be terrified of change.
In Pulaski, you get a job right out of high school, and you stay there until you retire or they lay you off to outsource your job to overseas, you marry your high-school sweetheart and if you're my parents, you stay married even if you hate each other. (If you're somebody else's parents, you embark on a whirlwind of divorces and remarriages that you need a scorecard to keep up with, but I digress.)
I stayed with high-school band even though I hated it, because I didn't want to be a quitter. I declared before I even started kindergarten that I was going to go to Vanderbilt, and I did.
I don't know how to strike out in a new direction. I don't know how to be brave.
I'm so scared I could throw up.
In Pulaski, you get a job right out of high school, and you stay there until you retire or they lay you off to outsource your job to overseas, you marry your high-school sweetheart and if you're my parents, you stay married even if you hate each other. (If you're somebody else's parents, you embark on a whirlwind of divorces and remarriages that you need a scorecard to keep up with, but I digress.)
I stayed with high-school band even though I hated it, because I didn't want to be a quitter. I declared before I even started kindergarten that I was going to go to Vanderbilt, and I did.
I don't know how to strike out in a new direction. I don't know how to be brave.
I'm so scared I could throw up.
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Date: 2004-06-02 11:11 am (UTC)Also: imposed change can really improve the situation for those of us who won't budge without a crowbar or explosives. I am petrified/terrified by change, too, but I can honestly say that in retrospect, I am far better off because of each of the changes. Whatever is happening, you will be better off eventually - and, clearly, you will have friends and support through it all! ::hug and virtual cup of tea:: EGBAR (evrathin' gon' be aw-right)!