(no subject)

[kellinator]

I was raised to be terrified of change.

In Pulaski, you get a job right out of high school, and you stay there until you retire or they lay you off to outsource your job to overseas, you marry your high-school sweetheart and if you're my parents, you stay married even if you hate each other. (If you're somebody else's parents, you embark on a whirlwind of divorces and remarriages that you need a scorecard to keep up with, but I digress.)

I stayed with high-school band even though I hated it, because I didn't want to be a quitter. I declared before I even started kindergarten that I was going to go to Vanderbilt, and I did.

I don't know how to strike out in a new direction. I don't know how to be brave.

I'm so scared I could throw up.

Comments

What We Keep

[satia.livejournal.com]

That is a title of a novel by Elizabeth Berg.

Even when things change, you can and do take some things with you. Nobody loses everything even in the largest of changes.

You often complain about where you are, how you are not happy with things as they are. The only way to get free from what you don't love, you need to change. That said, you don't have to change everything. After all, even in this, there is much that you love.

As they say in the 12 steps . . . take what you like and leave the rest.