kellinator | (sigh)

One of the nicest compliments I've ever received was from my college friend Courtney. She recounted to me a conversation she'd had with this guy where she said that everyone is just out to get whatever they from you and then she said, "Wait. I can think of one person who's not like that. Kelly's not like that."

Of course, this didn't mean that she -- or anyone else, for that matter -- treated me any better.

I've always been the dependable friend, never the fun one. In high school I was the one who got left behind -- not even invited -- while the rest of the crew took a break from their backstabbing to go see Legends of the Fall. My high-school "best friend" would come and complain to me when she was having a fight with another friend, then as soon as they made up, she'd take off with them and ignore me.

I care about people. I try to treat people the way I would like to be treated. That's just the way I am, even though through my life so far only a few of my "friends" have been loyal to me.

I'm just sick of being the dependable one who actually cares and for her pains gets accused of being a stalker and a weirdo. I'm tired of being told what's wrong with me.