None of my business

[kellinator]

You know, for a few days I'd been wondering what was up -- where everyone was. Now I think I know. I think I know a little more than I want to know. But more than I'm supposed to know.

You know, no one ever tells me anything. Now, I know a lot of stuff which people will gleefully tell me is none of my fucking business. I know a lot of stuff which I'm pretty damn sure I was better off not knowing. But I don't know the things I need to know -- such as, which of my friends now hate each other.

I had this dream a while back, that I met Kevin Smith and his friends. And I was so excited. But then, they told me I was the most annoying, obnoxious person they had ever met. And I was crushed. I've been thinking about what that dream means.

If you don't like me, tell me. Be a man or a woman about it. Don't leave it for me to figure out -- as we all know, I don't have the social skills to tell, remember? I'll respect you for being honest. But I'm tired of being a barely-tolerated hanger-on. Don't assume that things don't affect me just because I'm not fucking or sucking anyone.

Comments

Touching base

[nanbear.livejournal.com]

Part of your feeling left out is because you aren't present when things happen. I have purposely not gone to Innvox except once a week to be left out of some of this stuff.

If I want details, I do one of two things -- I pick up the phone and call and say "what's new". Or I send an email.

By the way, I haven't gotten either from you in quite some time. I guess that means you feel left out of my life and not part of it. You're wrong. We just haven't had time to click and catch up. We will. Don't be so discouraged.

Hmmmm

[luckychance.livejournal.com]

Well, though we met through the LJ Random button, I like you. You're honest, up front and thoughtful. So there. Deal. *grin* And the next time, I drag my self up your way, I hope we can meet for coffee talk.

Re: Hmmmm

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

Thanks... this meant a lot. I'd love to slam some java with you.