This can't be normal.

[kellinator]

I was just wondering how much longer I can possibly be this depressed and what it's going to take for me to snap out of it. I've taken my antidepressants, been to therapy (individual and group), and, as best as I can tell, done everything you're supposed to to deal with this. So why can't I beat it?

I've been thinking about "checking out" as I term it a lot lately. I just feel so rotten and I don't know how to fix it. I keep trying, I keep trying, I've done everything I can think of, and I feel like I'm fresh out of ideas. I'm beating my head against a brick wall, so is it any surprise that I've got a headache?

(And by the way, if anyone responds to this with "oh, you think you have it bad? well listen to the week I've had. Z didn't return my phone call and Y didn't compliment me on my new clothes and...." I intend to find the nearest sharp implement and do something creative with it. You've been warned. Like you'd care.)

Comments

[morven.livejournal.com]

Oh Kelly. I'm sorry you are feeling crumby. Would you like to hang out some time next week? I don't claim to know what to do, but if you'd like some diversion time I'd love to chat or go somewhere or something. I've been too busy to hang out anywhere for the last week or two but that will be over as of this weekend.

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

Hey... that sounds really nice. Thanks, angel -- and good luck this weekend.