I don't belong here

[kellinator]

I'm feeling like coming home probably wasn't the smartest decision I've ever made.

10dimensions and I were having this conversation last weekend about how there are so many people in the world who just go to work, come home, watch TV, and never seem to want anything more out of life.

And now I'm having this really uncomfortable feeling that that's my family.

Recent conversation:

Mom: Did you watch Miss Match?
Me: No, Mom. I'm not watching much TV these days.

Five minutes later:

Mom: Did you watch The Lyon's Den?
Me: Mom, I told you that I'm not watching much TV.

It's an awful thing to try and come home and then realize that home isn't home. And right now, I have no idea where home is.

Comments

[weaktwos.livejournal.com]

Well, keep looking, you'll find it. I feel similarly. When I go to hang out with my mom, it doesn't quite feel like home. Though it is said you can't pick your family, you can. They just are not necessarily related to you.

[the-missy.livejournal.com]

I hate that. A good friend of mine does it, but he takes it a step beyond. He'll ask if I've seen a show, I'll tell him that not only have I never seen that show, I have no interest in ever seeing it, then he goes into an in-depth explaination of the intricacies of the plot and maybe something funny/cool/amazing he saw on said show.

So far, he's done it with the short-lived John Doe, the likewise short-lived Firefly, and the looks-unfunny MAD-TV. I've learned to just step away and find another conversation if he mentions any of those shows.

[wolven.livejournal.com]

That really does suck... It's a matter of making your home, where oyu can. Unfortunately, that may not be what USed to be home... :\

[ariedana.livejournal.com]

Sounds like when me and Dawn are talking to each other and Mom's listening. It's like someone who knows only English trying to understand people speaking Portugeuse.

You're welcome to come visit for a little normalcy. ::hugs::

[pennyproud.livejournal.com]

It's an awful thing to try and come home and then realize that home isn't home. And right now, I have no idea where home is.

Girl, truer words have never been spoken, and I'm right there with you. Good luck figuring it all out. *hugs*

[purpig.livejournal.com]

There is more to live than the TV!

[pinkeffigy.livejournal.com]

it happens to all of us, hon. I don't fully feel at home here, and I can easily recall when that happened. You will make your own place in life. One with intelligent viewing choices :)

[jerseygirl1.livejournal.com]

You still there? Want a visitor?

[adric]

Well, yeah. You would not've believed any of us if we'd told you. Sorry about that.

OTOH, the debut of Lyon's Den was quite good. I suppose I'll have to try and catch it tonight.

On the sympathy / catharsis front: YOu mom is in Tenn. Mine is the bedroom across the hall.