kellinator: (Daria)
kellinator ([personal profile] kellinator) wrote2003-10-13 03:59 pm

Keep your hands inside the car at all times.

People often remark to me that I live life very intensely. (They also say that I overreact to everything, which is pretty much the same thing in my mind.)

The best phrase I can come up with to describe how living my life that intensely feels is "like riding a rollercoaster blindfolded."

I suppose that might sound like fun. It leaves me feeling like I need to throw up a lot of the time.

But I suppose if I changed that, then I wouldn't be me...

[identity profile] ardentdelirium.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I once had a friend who said he admired my passion because I threw myself entirely into everything I did.
I suppose that might sound like fun. It leaves me feeling like I need to throw up a lot of the time.
I had a similar reaction.

[identity profile] whorlwind.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 01:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I know what you mean, but the times when I have managed to be calm and happy and basically less intense I've found not that I'm less me, but more. The intensity doesn't go away, it's just more properly focused.. like taking off the blindfold. :)

[identity profile] ariedana.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I used to live life in a whirlwind. Then I got older and tireder. Now a donkey's pace is fine with me.

[identity profile] gina.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm the same way.

[identity profile] fanagle.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 02:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm envious of how passionate you are about everything. You're experiencing life with great gusto, don't change.

[identity profile] tikimama.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 02:46 pm (UTC)(link)
But I suppose if I changed that, then I wouldn't be me...

I don't think so. You are you, regardless of your choices.

[identity profile] zanzara.livejournal.com 2003-10-13 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, I think it's in the genetics. And we must be cousins ;)

[identity profile] canciona.livejournal.com 2003-10-14 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
Gee, that sounds familiar...

[identity profile] kellinator.livejournal.com 2003-10-14 08:13 am (UTC)(link)
Does it ever get any easier?

[identity profile] canciona.livejournal.com 2003-10-14 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I'd have to say it does.

If you get the right meds/right doses, the right people around you, who listen and understand (and a doctor who fits this description, very important), or who understand that they won't always understand, but who just care, if you have patience with yourself, and accept that it's a learning process, trying to figure it all out, and understand/accept that it & you are worth the effort...it does get better.

It sounds harder than it is, really. You're already very self-aware (very important), and have supportive people around you, and those are two major factors. I know it doesn't feel like it, but you're already well on the way. Have hope. You're stronger than you know.

[identity profile] canciona.livejournal.com 2003-10-15 09:39 am (UTC)(link)
Please bitchslap me if I start to sound too much like Oprah. It's the cold meds. That's my story & I'm stickin to it. Hugs to ya.

[identity profile] kellinator.livejournal.com 2003-10-15 10:58 am (UTC)(link)
No, actually that comment helped a lot. Thank you so much. *hugs*