Moments

[kellinator]

There are moments when I look at my life and wonder, How did it come to this?

There are moments where I shake my insignificant little fist at the sky and bitch and whine about the things I don't have that I want, the things I don't have that I think I want, the things I haven't accomplished, the things that didn't turn out like I thought they were supposed to.

And then there are moments when I look around me.

Geeking out with scarcrest, the only person more obsessed with Homicide: Life on the Street than I am.
Snarking with atomicnumber51 over ex-boyfriends from hell and the summer we lived in Nashville in a house that smelled like dog piss.
Plotting mischief with 10dimensions.
The moment every week where I walk into Criminal Records' comics section and ask Rick, "What's new and good?"
Playing with alanator's dog.
Snuggling a kitty.
Writing something that makes someone laugh, or think.
Looking up into a night sky with infinite stars.
Facing down AT&T and Dekalb County in the same year.
Putting on new clothes and thinking "damn, I'm hot."
Dyeing my hair so red it couldn't possibly be natural.
Realizing how good I am at my job.
Looking at myself in the mirror and knowing how far I've come.

And in those moments, I know it's okay if not all my dreams came true, because I'm living a life beyond my wildest dreams.

Comments

[purpig.livejournal.com]

Very well put. It's the things we often overlook that make life worth living. :) *hugs*

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to see those things more often now... *hugs*

[weaktwos.livejournal.com]

I think there's a delightful novella behind the title, "The summer we lived in Nashville in a house that smelled like dog piss."

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

-blink-

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I think you may have just given me my NaNoWriMo idea!

[weaktwos.livejournal.com]

Well, hot damn!

[salog.livejournal.com]

very nice.
Are you going to be able to make it to Scott's games this Sunday??

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

I plan to! Is it at Marie's again? I hope I still have directions... What time are we starting?

[salog.livejournal.com]

Yes the game is at Marie's.
I want to say the start time is 2pm, but you might want to give Molly a call to make sure.

See you then;

[soulfire.livejournal.com]

*smiles softly* You remind me to take a look at all the things around me that I do have to be grateful for instead of focusing on the very few things that make me unhappy. Thank you hon for opening my eyes again... I shall have to scurry off and write my own list today :)

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

Wow. I'm just glad to be of help. Y'know, it's a little ironic, what with all the whining I've been doing lately... Here's to better times for all of us. :)

[soulfire.livejournal.com]

We're all allowed to whine now and again :) Besides we sometimes have our moments of clarity in the midsts of them. I'll raise a glass to better times for all of us indeed :) *Hugs*

[madmexican.livejournal.com]

damn.......you are hot......for someone from vol country......;P

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

I went to Vandy!! I HATE the Vols!!!

[madmexican.livejournal.com]

.........uuummmm......was that supposed to make a difference?

:::ducks:::

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

I'm not touching that one.

[madmexican.livejournal.com]

damn.....the bait didn't work....must try new approach.

[(Anonymous)]

I have to say, it's way past time that I drew up such a list. Thank you for reminding me that, when all is said and done, life is pretty amazing.

PS Forgive the anonymous posting, I'm just too poor for even LJ...

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

You're welcome. I'm just amazed that something I said could help someone else.

Tell me who you are and I might be able to help...

[(Anonymous)]

Actually, a recent discovery on my part makes telling you who I am necessitate also telling you a whole "It's a Small World, After All"-type story. If you'd like, I can email it to you at your live journal addy.

Great, now I sound like some sort of lame "woman of mystery." But the story actually is sorta bizarre and would require a little (okay, kind of lengthy) explanaition...

[kellinator.livejournal.com]

Oh, now I'm just dying of curiosity! Do tell!

[canciona.livejournal.com]

Glad things are looking up today. Sometimes ya just gotta remember why it's all worthwhile. Yay you!