This morning on The Today Show...

Katie Couric: So Kellinator, you finally got what you wanted. How do you feel?
Kellinator: Pretty fucking miserable.
(long pause)
Katie Couric: Um, Kellinator? This is a family show. I need to ask you not to use that word again.
Kellinator: What, fucking? Why fucking not? It's my favorite fucking word. You should try it sometime. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fu--
(Cut to commercial.)

(very long sigh)

Why can't I just enjoy the moment instead of whining and worrying and being paranoid? I should be happy, but I'm crying inside.